#SoCS: I have more, but I need less
More. That’s the prompt for this week’s Stream of Consciousness Blog Hop, hosted by Linda Hill. Right now I have more. I keep getting more. And I need less.
Yeah, I know, that probably sounded really ungrateful, but hear me out. My life is very full right now–full of good things and difficult things and mundane things, the things that make a life. But it’s one of those times when there’s just too much. I volunteered for an activity that, while enjoyable and of service to my fellow writers, is going to take a big chunk of time. My husband is having major surgery in 3 weeks, so I have to prepare to take leave from work and stock up on groceries and make meals ahead and, and, and… We’re waiting for my son’s COVID test results, meanwhile we’ve all had mild symptoms, so we’re trying to do everything we need to do before surgery without leaving the house. I’m revising my second novel. I’m considering hiring an editor for my first novel. I’m finalizing a short story. I’m trying to find a publisher for another story. I’m contemplating some other life changes. I’m in peri-menopause. I’m cleaning and decluttering. I’m cooking every meal at home because, you know, we might have COVID, so we aren’t going out. And I’m overwhelmed. And, oh, yeah, I’m working full time. Wheee….
Whew. Now that all that is out of the way, I want to emphasize that I’m grateful. So grateful. If we do have COVID, our symptoms are mild. Mine are already gone. Husband can’t taste his food, but otherwise, he’s fine. Son is almost back to normal, though he can’t taste his food either. Me? I can taste my food just fine. Too fine. All I want to do is eat. If this is COVID, then we are truly fortunate to come through it so easily.
My life is full of new opportunities and excitement and joy.
It’s high summer, and the weather and the garden are beautiful. I live a half mile from the Coconino National Forest, so I can hike amid the ponderosa pines every day if I want.
I’m gainfully employed–unlike so many–with a job I enjoy.
I’m healthy, and I’m happy.
So yeah, I’d like a bit less–fewer commitments, some time to lollygag and lounge and read and play–but my life is beautifully full. I have more. And it is wonderful.
8 Comments
Karen at Reprobate Typewriter
Your place sounds beautiful. Go smell the pines for me!
willowdot21
May you stay so blessed ?
Audrey Martin
I hope you and your family stay as healthy as possible and that your husband’s surgery goes well! And best of luck with the submissions! -Audrey
Janet Crum
Thanks! I hope you’re doing well!
anitashope
Many hopes all heal from whatever the ailment seems to be. Hoping surgery goes smoothly.
Laura
It’s okay to vent even if you think it sounds ungrateful — it’s entirely possible to be overwhelmed and exhausted AND grateful for the good things in your life. So glad to hear the illness is passing.
joylenebutler
Take a deep breath, Janet. Don’t be afraid to say “No.” And take good care of yourself.
Janet Crum
Thanks. I say yes to waaaayyy too many things.